Reality Check

Well the first day was tough, I wanted so bad to stop for fast food on the way home because traffic was horrible and it was going to be after 6 before I got home. But I didn't. I was also craving salt/sweets hard core.  Spent some time in prayer about that.

So I weighed myself this morning, and was flooded with a great deal of shame and some grief. I've gained back all the weight I lost plus some. Prayed all the way to work for grace and peace to come to terms with my addiction and to put aside my functional savior.

Starting Weight: 320
Goal: 175

I can and will do this through the grace of God.

Thanks for reading.

Time to Get Back on Track

I've been realizing for a while that I have just completely given up on eating well.  With the move, the issues with the new house, then the holidays, I kept putting off getting back on track.  All excuses.  All unacceptable. I need to take care of me. This is not my body, but God's temple and I've desecrated it.

I'm currently reading the book Thin Within (thanks Jenn Barrett) and I'm loving it. I'm hoping it gives me peace.

Vacation was a reality check for me and the plan even before then was to get back on track after vacation.  I don't fit in the exit row seats on an airplane.  The seat belts don't fit me. I have to have an extender. This is just plain unacceptable.  For my own sake, I need to take this weight off for good. I'm back on the www.fitteam.com plan which worked so well for me previously.  And I have a membership at Clay Madsen Rec Center and will be exercising there. Jenn B. has agreed to be my accountability partner. I need that.

I forgot to weigh this morning, but I know I'm back up over 300lbs.

Here we go!

So Confusing

Well I weighed myself this morning. I was completely unsure what to expect. I've been following my eating plan to the letter. I've been hitting step goal every day. But my stress level has been high. Imagine my surprise when I had not only lost the 4.5lbs I gained back but then some! I've hit 25lbs lost. What!?!?

Starting weight: 314
Current weight: 289

My wedding ring should fit again soon!!!

Back Sliding

Wow. Who knew that putting your house up for sale would make you totally be ridiculous on your eating plan. Not this girl. I'm going to own it. I have been cheating quite often this past few weeks. I've eaten out. I've eaten dessert. I've not made good choices. I've gained 4.5 lbs back.

I've started anew today. I fell down. I could blame circumstances but it's my failure. I'm back on track and more determined than ever.

Still a big difference between day 1 and day 60.

I can do this with God's strength and not my own.

Old Habits Die Hard

So last week I was very I'll with a virus that had me running a fever for five days. Being down for the count I really only ate one meal a day and it was something I could, order in or get at a drive through. Not good.  I didn't gain any weight but I didn't lose any more either.  

I've hit the ground running hard core this week. 

I know everyone falls off the wagon sometimes but I'm seriously angry with myself.  I really hate that I continue to sin. I let the devil and his ideas creep in and just take over. 

Prayers appreciated. I can do this. Lord give me strength. 

Thirty Days Into My New Life

It's been challenging. I've chosen to cheat a few times as I'm supposed to. I feel wonderful. I WANT to keep going!

Starting weight: 314
Current weight: 296
Goal weight: 175
Total lost: 18

I can do this. I am worth it.

Praise be to God for giving me the strength, will, and determination to do this. I am slowly but surely repairing His temple.

Vacation

Vacations are hard on reading habits. Man Alive. I actually stayed pretty close two ox the three days but last night I have info a craving and ate potato chips. Tonight for dinner I had a burger and a shake. If have been okay without the shake. I'm feeling pretty ashamed of myself right now. Blah.

Father God forgive me for my sin. Give me the strength and the power of your will to do the right thing.

Tomorrow is a new day and I will get back to it hard core. I can do this.